Walking Everywhere, Reaching Nowhere

The State of goalessness, the worst thing that can happen to anyone(atleast me). It feels really miserable to go through this patch. Goal here is a very loose term. It refers to everything from the purpose of life to a very short term goal of kicking the buster who speaks loud in the bus. When one has nothing to look forward to, life comes to a stand still, he has lost his purpose in life, the eligibility to exist.

Starting from the goal of passing every grade in school, the goal of getting good marks to get a good college, the goal of doing good in college to get a good job and doing a good job to get a good salary. Goals keep changing in life and the last goal of doing a good job to get a good salary is the goal that least interests me. That is the way the system works, assigning a goal and getting you used to moving somewhere, learning something new, doing something different...... I think when one gets a job the system quits leaving us to be the masters of our own destiny. Transferring the power of pushing one forward COMPLETELY to one's own hands. I am not a very ambitious person to set definite goals to myself or am i clear with what i want in life. I am just like a fish swimming whereever the water flows.

What drives one, if it is not money? It is sometimes the satisfaction of doing something that interests one, sometimes it is the satisfaction of taking something that you started to the finish or doing something that one believes in. It is by setting myself such goals, that has kept me moving forward. The struggle that is pumped into to achieve these rare goals that pop up in my life gives me the satisfaction of having done something i wish to do. But how often does one find something that one can work for passionately?

The mind should never be goalless. When you know you have nothing to look forward to and your life is becoming purposeless it is time something is done about it. You realise that you have nothing in your mind when you go to sleep, nothing to think about with interest, it is time you found yourself something to think about when you go to sleep. It is the only way MY mind can find peace, by having something to work for with all its energy. It is high time it found something to look forward to or it will rot and would eventually loose the capacity to be contended even if it has something to look forward to.

Desserts, Co-curriculam, Futures and Options

Right from the time I remember, i have always been more interested in Desserts than the main course, more interested in co-curriculam and extra-curriculam than curriculam, more interested in things that are optional than mandatory.

I have always wondered why i would involve myself very deeply with things that were considered unimportant. I got interested in yoga in school suddenly and went every day, tried to attend workshops and participate in competitions. The moment my dad said, "Son, you are going to wake up everyday at 6 and do yoga" i was least interested in it and eventually stopped doing it.

I would involve myself managing events in school and college giving my heart, body and soul rather than bothering myself with the books which the mainstream in college were interested in.
Is it the feeling of freewill that drugs the mind? Or Is it because the mind shuns authority and rules wanting to break free? Is it the possibility of excelling in one's own way in areas that one is not usually expected to?

The Mind is such a selfish sucker

He let her go, let her do what she believed in, trying to put a brave face. But he was missing her every single moment, hoping she would come back to him, hoping that her love for him would make her change her mind.

Hope!! How long can he keep hoping, watching her go away from him every second? After hope ran out it was helplessness that he must have been left with. It was that moment, the first time in his life he realised that he had absolutely no power to do anything. He had no control over things that were happening. He probably never should have felt this way before. He just couldn't do anything. He wanted her, wanted her next to him sitting and talking to him like the best days of his life. He was being pushed, being pushed to a corner where he could just be a spectator. He had no one else to go to for help because no one could help him. It was then he thought about God, a greater power that he could go to help for. He has never visited a temple before, never wanted to go to one expect when being forced to go by his parents. The concept probably never appealed to him i guess.

It was then he realised that everyone deserved the concept of God. It is in such a helpless moment that he had to start believing in a higher power so he could feel that he was doing something to change the way things were happenning.

People have to believe in something as abstract as God because if they had control over that higher power it would eventually become the maximum level to which a person can have control over their own life and they would start feeling helpless again beyond that.

Talking about me, my belief in god is not believing in religion or giving god a form. To me it is just believing that a higher power exists and that can be called Spirituality. If people are Spiritual and not Religious i think most problems in the world would be solved.

The mind is therefore such a sucker believing in whatever it wants, conflicting and contradicting its own stand just because it wants to heal.

P.S: I am not a travelling sage now trying to find a higher power. Life just moves on. I haven't visited a place of worship yet hehehehehehehehhehehe :P

What a Thought !!!!!

“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.”

- Albert Einstein

All this while i thought Einstein was just a geek :)

Starting a blog with a thought like this? yeah right i am philosophical.

I have never thought abt happiness in life in this point of view. People and things being mortal, it's having a goal alone in most cases that brings happiness to life. Atleast i am sure it would bring happiness to mine if i had a goal ;)